‘Disorder’ EP Lyrics:

rust

they stole the breath in my sleep
so i couldn’t dream, i never got clean
i prayed for death or disease
but they fed me hope in a vaccine

so we
laugh until our bodies rust
laugh until our bodies rust
laugh until our bodies rust
god don’t care, that’s why he made us dust

i’d cry out to you every night
god damn it, save us, before we hurt ourselves
silence stole the love in our hearts
rip me apart, ’cause i’ve grown to like it

so we
laugh until our bodies rust
laugh until our bodies rust
laugh until our bodies rust
god don’t care, that’s why he made us dust

if i could breath you in
feel the weight of your punch
if i could breathe you into me
i’d laugh until our bodies rust

laugh until our bodies rust
laugh until our bodies rust
laugh until our bodies rust
nothing hurts, we’re just made of dust

altoids

we were listening to jazz or punk rock or philip glass
(i can’t remember)
you had two uppers in an altoids can
my mind was pretty vagued up
my girlfriend left for houston to live with her dad again
and i was lonelier than i’d ever been
am i still lonelier than i’ve ever been?

and if i’m being totally honest
i never thought that i’d live this long, okay
and if we’re being totally honest
i get nostalgic while life just keeps pulling away, away

funny thinking ’bout the drugs and paths we never meant to take
(but took ‘em all)
still we ended up here despite consequences
driving through big sur, i can’t shake how
i’m not worthy of a moment this pure
who will remind me what i’m searching for?
which god will remind me what i’m pounding for?

and if i’m being totally honest
i never thought that i’d live this long, okay
and if we’re being totally honest
i get nostalgic while life just keeps pulling away, away

i’m sorry i’m nostalgic over everything you say
this e that i just took is taking my breath away
this city barely sleeps, and there’s a hole in manhattan
the size of my heart, the site where you used to take me and say
‘baby, validate me’

and if i’m being totally honest
i never thought that i’d live this long, okay
and if we’re being totally honest
i get nostalgic while life just keeps pulling away, away

i’m sorry (x4)

withoxt yxu

floating by, paralyzed
your good graces keep me in this light
have i been drowning without you?
i am drowning without you

i’m broken down, i need a fix
i’m hypnotized, is this it?
have i been drowning without you?
i am drowning without you

and i know that you know
and you still let it go

dissatisfied with or without you

that silky thing coming loose
i play the tape on repeat for clues
have i been drowning without you?
i am drowning without you

amnesiac, erasing proof
it disappears, but it’s not removed
have i been drowning without you?
i am drowning without you

and i know that you know
and you still…
and i know that you know
and you still let it go

dissatisfied with or without you